All of Me; a Spoken Word Poem

Within the stress

Within the mess

Beyond this is girl

Is her distress.

Pressure building

Nerves contracting

Everything inside reacting

Negatively to this strain

This pain

This hurt inside

Everything is slowly ending

My life, myself, it all

Depending

On what used to be

What once was good

I see it all

But I’m beneath a hood

A cloak, a veil of endless

Dim light

Of out of reach

But within my sight

I think and think and think

I need it

Try and try and try

To feel it

But its not there

It’s just not fair

Why me? why now? why this?

I ponder

What’s going on inside

I wonder

My brain is mush

Bones turned to dust

I push and push and push

Too much

Avoid it, forget it all

But in my head

It haunts my all

My everything, my very being

Slowly turning into green

Envying and jealousy

Inside the mirror I see not me.

But why look?

Why look at all

It longs and quickens

And steepens the fall

The crash, the end

The end of me

My very all, yes all of me.

The hate, the laze, the jealousy

My want, my lust and gluttony

And everything inside of me

All of it

Has taken over me

I don’t know why, why anything

But I’ll fight,

Give everything.

This was, is not

Will never be

The ever impending

Doom of me.

Although my body

Screams at me

Tears at my consciousness

Dements my dreams

I shall not be discouraged

Nor give up that easily.