Everything and Nothing
He only kissed me because she dared him to. He only kissed me again because he thought he might get lucky. Then again I have no room to judge. I thought it might too. And maybe, if I did that, I might feel something again. But I chickened out and only kissed him goodnight, watching him walk out into the rain not long after with another blonde slut. No she-shaming though, I used to be that blonde slut. But now I am just a girl who put everything on hold because one guy hurt her. A girl who went from feeling so much all at once to feeling absolutely nothing at all. Nothingness for years... I thought I'd get over him, over the pain and the trust issues. Like I did before. It took me less than a year to recover from losing my virginity in a very regrettable fashion... about 6 months or so to recover (mostly) from being assaulted by two men that I had considered my friends... only a few weeks to recover from the trauma of totaling my car from a stupid teenage mistake... and about a